raindrops thoughts

it has been a little while since my last post in here. got a lot of thoughts to write actually but didn't have enough inspiration yet or drive I should say to write one good post. I am still lost and hiding myself over being busy keeping up with quota among others. until finally today...another rainy tuesday, in the middle of work my brain cells are finally back in work for some thing like this, along with the creative and hopeless romantic side of me, I was able to pull off this title-less poem. Actually have thought of a couple of title already, but feels like nothing fits. So I will leave this as it is.

My Kind of Summer 2015

Summer - probably the second best times of the year in Ph because it would mean VACATION – Island hopping – weekend getaway or whatsoever. For most students it when they are free from assignments and projects

However for an ordinary working girl who is earning just within the bar of minimum wage – in short in a tight budget, summer escapades will only be on dreamland. It will always be at bay specially for someone like me. But not until summer 2015 comes…

No one says a perfect summer has to be spent on luxurious beach resort or travelling abroad, There are thousands of ways to enjoy summer perfectly without hurting ones pocket and that is what I just found out. (Crazy me lol!)

A perfect summer isn’t only about the destination but rather it is about the memories you’ve made. And memories are always great when made with the ones close to your heart. So here’s my few take of how to enjoy summer . ^_^

1*    swimming escapade with  neighbors

-     This allows me to spend lesser than I should have to if I had it on my own alone. Of course one of my neighbors is generous enough to provide us a service; we just need to “chip in” for the gasoline. Each family who went with us, cook their food and when we reach to the beach...we share all our “baon “– thus we had a feast! We enjoyed the beach plus we had more than enough food.

1*  Dating my siblings

-    When I heard about Logos Hope being here in Cebu, my heart immediately flutters, they’ve been here sometime ago, but I was not able to visit. So I grab this year’s chance, it was also in time for my youngest sister’s birthday – just a perfect way to celebrate her day and welcome her to Club 20’s.

once upon a time "Logos Hope" @ Cebu, Phils ^_^

* * Reuniting with good old friends

-     A good friend of mine just got back from halfway across the world and invited me and the rest of our gang for a lunch date! That’s great! Reanimate ties and some trips to memory lane. Oh it was indeed my Tribu Subakanon family whom I had reunited with this summer. 

few of my TS ( Tribu Subakanon) brothers and sisters with friends

How about you? How did your summer pass? 

What Mother Means to me

She is my first teacher…

It is said, life doesn’t comes with a handbook of instructions

But because I have a mother

I learned to count from 1 to 10

started singing ABC…..

And I got someone who teaches me how to take a step

to start a journey

 She is my enemy yet a best friend to me…

It is not always a bed of roses with my mother

At time she can really be a nagger, she’s unlimited all the time

Keep on talking the same thing day after day

Time after time we have indifferences

That may had build a wall between us

At times, I don’t agree with her
and don’t understand her point of view

to her is the opposite one but, in my mind, I am on the right track

Because this is how it is done in my generation

Nevertheless, whenever I fall down and don’t know how to get up

She’s always the one who offer a hand and guide me

To where I supposed to be

She is my Superhero, who doesn’t need a cape…

Motherhood is a 24/7 lifetime job, without any overtime pay

No fixed salary, not even a single government mandated benefits

She may not be around with me all the time

But whenever, I stumble upon a stormy road

She has seemed to call all the angels to help me get through  it

Without all her nagging so much when I was young

I am not sure if I can be who I am today!

To all the mothers in the world! I salute you for the unending sacrifices that you make for your kids. Happy Mothers’ Day!


//disclaimer: photo cto: google//

I LOVE YOU

Tonight I am told:

The words " I LOVE YOU"

is a pledge that you'd overcome

insecurities and create new moments everyday

It is a promise

that you will think this moment

as everlasting

rather than worrying about the future

_____________________________

Such a beautiful food for thought to wrap up my

usual striving day at work

The world is scarier than it looks

but it can never be a reason not to smile

and be grateful for the day that passed

My life is indeed just the usual routine

Home- office- home on weekdays

and on weekends and paydays

It'll be home- grocery- church- home

But thanks to the brilliant brains

of those writers who often make me smile

through their works be it in movies, pocketbooks

or every little thing that somehow

keeps me away for a moment from the harsh reality of my world

Food for thought tonight was from a Korean Tv series

I NEED ROMANCE 3

And that's how I called my day!

Keep smiling everyone...and no matter what

Keep believin' in love
I think I am going to believe on it again ( now where did that come from??? lol!)

mokz signing off for today <3 <3 <3

*image cto: google*

Quarter / Mid Life Crisis or Just some Over thinking?

image ctto: gooogle

Someone’s going back to being a teenager again…”identity crisis”, personality issues and all, well it’s another #somanyquestionsbuttheanswersaresofew ( longest hashtag?) moment of mine. There some points in my life, when my head has a lot of questions, #soulsearching.

 Why is it that every time we travel ( I mean….I )  down the memory lane, it always seemed like it was only yesterday? Oh well perhaps this only applies to me. Backward to the time when I was young, maybe at grade school and early teens, I always look forward to the future, that for me was like ten years ahead. I always had a great vision of how my life would be and in my mind I am memorizing the chronological order of events, I had everything planned in my mind, always have this short and long term goal, oh that was what I learn from school back then.

Perhaps it was the absence of technology back then that my idle mind always drifts to somewhere I haven’t been to. That was then a great escape from the reality of life back there in the countryside, as I look at it at this very moment, it was a great coping mechanism of all the detours, bumps and humps that life has thrown at me an early age.

However I really miss those moments now…I don’t know where did this “wisdom comes with age “goes. I just turned 29, but it is really embarrassing to realize that I have lost that sense of direction, lost the capability to dream of a beautiful tomorrow. Am I tired of dreaming and imagining how my tomorrow would be? If that’s the case, do I have to feel sorry for myself? If there is such a thing as puberty crisis, so what could this be quarter life crisis? Tsk! Tsk! Tsk! The jerk in me eh…

Or maybe it could also be that I am just trying to live for a moment, being in the moment without worrying what tomorrow would brings. Yes I did grow tired worrying of things that may or may not happen in the future. And that is why; I am only in for the moment. But yes, I do still think of my tomorrow however, I work hard on a daily basis, whether it will pays off tomorrow or not, at least there’s no way I would be blaming myself for having busy thinking of those uncertain things  that I forget to enjoy what today has for me.

Perhaps there are really these moments in man’s life where all we can find in mind and heart are questions. Questions that when we find the answer, we will ask another question again yet we are not satisfied with the answer or maybe even if we have the answer we just deny it.

Well this is life and it is too short to worry about things that we aren't sure if it will really happen in the future. Just work your ass off today but don’t forget to enjoy things.  A midst your busy timetable you can always pause for a moment and look for something that would paint a smile in your lips. At times it can’t be that easy because the world has its ways to give us a thousand reasons to frown but it does not mean that we cannot find a single reason to smile.

So I am taking this easy now…I always have this feeling in my heart that someday soon it will be over and whatever inhibition it is I have in mind, I will soon forget about it.

29 Amazing Years

Thanks to Him above for giving me another amazing year of my life. The was a bit rough at some point, but hey! I made it, wearing still the same smile.Instead of looking back at how I was in the years that has passed, this time…I like to look forward….I don’t want to grow old but at the same time, I am quite excited to be on to be on the line of 3’s. chos!  I just thought, that there’s so much in life to look forward to!

Anyway, to my parents, we may have different views in life, but I will always be forever grateful to the both of you, I couldn’t be where I am right now, and this old if not because of you. And I still believe deep in my heart, that one day soon we’ll get that chance to be happy together. I am so looking forward to that day and I won’t grow tired of hoping.

To my dearest siblings…sorry guys Ate will always be “maldita”, I don’t think I will mellow down either but just so you know I am just thinking for the best of you. I am always quite and snub but you know very well, that you can always count me in need (although “makatilaw sad jud mo ug yawyaw here and there)

To all the amazing people I’ve met, became friends with, laugh and cry with, thank you so much! My journey won’t be the same without guys! Special thanks to those who remember my special day…he-he! It means a lot to me!

Without further ado….happy birthday to me! 29 amazing years!!! OMG!!!

Thanks to you

 Dear Tribu Subakanon,

Today is such a special day for you and I can only thank you for having been a part of my online world. My life would never be as colorful as it was if I haven’t met you.  And since it is your special day, allow me to express my deepest gratitude for the things that you have given me

I want to thank you for:

1.   The gift of friendship

I was once a lonely kid working late nights in a four cornered room until you come along. I can still recall how many nights we have spent together, sharing even some non sense topics and jokes as well. Nothing compares to that special friendship that binds us even if some of us are living in different time zone.

2.   Being an instrument of help to those who are in need

I am just an ordinary individual living in my own means, but I do have a  heart to those in need, yet I am not confident enough to extend every little thing I can do to  help but with you I am able to do my share. You have collected us to help as one.

3.   The memories we all have shared that I will forever cherish in my heart.

These are but just few of the many things I have been with you that I am thankful of. You are maybe silent these days but I know one day soon, you will soar up high because of the friendship that you have created among us that go beyond online.

Happy anniversary to you…and happy friendship day to all the tribuletz! I am looking forward to that day when we will be together once again.       

Thankfully yours,

Mokz jm a.k.a “ Lukring”