Thanks to you

 Dear Tribu Subakanon,

Today is such a special day for you and I can only thank you for having been a part of my online world. My life would never be as colorful as it was if I haven’t met you.  And since it is your special day, allow me to express my deepest gratitude for the things that you have given me

I want to thank you for:

1.   The gift of friendship

I was once a lonely kid working late nights in a four cornered room until you come along. I can still recall how many nights we have spent together, sharing even some non sense topics and jokes as well. Nothing compares to that special friendship that binds us even if some of us are living in different time zone.

2.   Being an instrument of help to those who are in need

I am just an ordinary individual living in my own means, but I do have a  heart to those in need, yet I am not confident enough to extend every little thing I can do to  help but with you I am able to do my share. You have collected us to help as one.

3.   The memories we all have shared that I will forever cherish in my heart.

These are but just few of the many things I have been with you that I am thankful of. You are maybe silent these days but I know one day soon, you will soar up high because of the friendship that you have created among us that go beyond online.

Happy anniversary to you…and happy friendship day to all the tribuletz! I am looking forward to that day when we will be together once again.       

Thankfully yours,

Mokz jm a.k.a “ Lukring”

Losing My Sense of Direction

disclaimer: photo not mine..just grabbed it from somewhere. ^_^

It was an ordinary working day in the office, and since it was a lunch break chickahan galore kami with one of my officemates. Wala lang..kanit anu-ano na ang naging topic naming, well mostly ganun lang talaga kami kadaldal kahit anong bagay napapag-usapan, mula lovelife hanggang gamut sa dandruff.

Light lang ang chikahan naming nun when out of the blue my officemate asked me “ what’s your goal in life?”  Napakasimpleng tanong na cguro kahit kinder eh masagot agad. But it was different with me…parang bigla akong nabulunan and I fell into deep thinking.

My officemate asked me again…and I just said in jest.. iisipin ko pa, sabay tawa ng malamya. Then she said, ganun din pala cya hindi na nya alam kung ano nga ba ang goal nya. Sa isip ko, buti na lng I am not alone.But seriously, I can’t explain myself and what I really want in life. Parang ang dami ko gusting gawin, meron nga na nasimulan ko na, pero ni hindi ko rin matapos-tapos.

Back on my early teens, I had my life planned already..what will I do pagka-graduate ng high school and so on and so forth. But lately, parang I am living each day as it is bahala na si Batman bukas. Which I am not sure, if this is just normal  thing. Minsan, iniisip ko na lng na baka ganito nga lang pagtumatanda ka na. lol!

 Ganito nga ba or I am just losing my sense of direction? Or am I just living one moment at a time? Whatever it is, somehow I am thankful and kind a proud of myself because I am able to surpassed all the detours and humps that has come along my way.

Siguro minsan as our personality evolved we would think na we are losing track, yun pala we just find another way to deal with things. But really when you feel like you are at lost, just take some quiet time of your own, and you'll have the answer.

(Naks namen! Im growing old na jud..ha-ha! )

Scattered thoughts on my " POST ITS"

It's a Sunday afternoon at wala masyadong ganap sa work, medyo nabagot din ng konti, kaya napag tripan ko ang "post it" sa PC. Ang saya naman pala nyang gamitin. ha-ha! Ang babaw lang...Well anyways, somehow I was able to tickle the poetic side of my brain and I made all these ^_^

pwede kaya?

trying to create a fan fiction out of this...but my brain cells aren't working well yet.. :(

Okay I admit I am a DanRis fan. And this one, was the song that Maris and Daniel  composed in the pool @ PBB house, but they're not able to finish it and so I am trying to finish it ^_^

Random thoughts

those were the days...indeed falling in love and be love is the greatest feeling,
 sadly not all will have a chance to happy ending

A short Escape

 I was born on this place but since I grown up, I have less time in getting back there because of work and other priorities. But I forget all of those, one Thursday of June 26, 2014. I and my cousins decided to hop on the bus and bring to life the long planned visit to our home town. As they say: we can always earn money but not memories.

getting to my birthplace is more or less a three- hour rides from tricyle to jeepney and then by bus. and finally arriving at Poblacion ( town center ) of Alcoy, need to hop into what we called as "habal-habal" for more or less 40 to 45 mins rides in a steep, long and winding road. For 1st timers and those who aren't used to it, maybe it's a little scary but it's all worth when you get to breathe the fresh cold air, which signals that you are almost there!                                                                                                                                                                                                                          

We were only there for a day vacation, thus we make use of the time to enjoy everything about the countryside. When our things were settled we decided to climb up to our grandparents old place                                                  

the tiring but all worth it climb to the top. really hard when you're a bit chubby! Whoah!

I am mad at buko! and it's always refresh to have one after a steep climb! Well, not just one but til my tummy said I was full already! Big thanks to our dear Lolo and Lola for planting coconuts trees long time ago, now we have something to go back home and many more!

from Buko  picnic madness to the little farm. miss being in the farm, so I indulged myself a little bit. Back in my younger days, I always dreaded summer because it would mean that most of my time will be in the farm along with my younger siblings to pull out weeds even under the sun. But since I always complained about ants and heat of the sun, Papa would left me home to prepare food and other household chores. it's a great escape too. he-he!

        

We've done so much in a day...as we say "sulit na sulit". It's tiring but truly fun and always worth reminiscing for. When the night came..we were then busy refreshing ourselves and getting ready to a barrio disco, too bad it rained when the night was young, thus there's only few who went for disco but of course me and my cousins were present...forgetting about the rain!!

The next morning...we headed back to town and stop by at Alcoy's famous white sand beach, Tingko!!!! It's never too late for a summer in June specially that the sun is up! Happiness that is!!!

@ Tingko- the famous white sand beach in Alcoy. There's still so much to do...but with the limited time we need to hurry up but we'll be back there someday soon. As of now there are more resorts that I need to explore around Tingko...!

So, that was my short escape to my hometown! It was quick but real great! Great time to relieve the childhood memories, reminiscing with childhood peers, crushes etc...And thanks to my dearest cousins for making this quick escape memorable and fun. Until next time....see yeahhhhhhhh!

                                      

“Behind passion and death is a glorious resurrection”

I have heard and known this inspirational quotes years ago, up to this date I still hold onto the this message.

If I’d let the pessimistic side of me rules, maybe I’d go crazy by now, or have done crazy things. As I take a look back of my own timeline, I’ve come to realize that there have been many hurdles in my journey that I had triumphantly overcome. I did not come from almost perfect and religious family but I am thankful that along the way I have met few good people who nurtured my faith and had kept it intact despite of everything.

These last of couple of years, some events in my life unfolded in my least expected way. Partly because of the choices I made. It’s not easy that sometimes, giving up has been my option. I am just blessed to have found His guidance in times when I feel so low and alone yet in a cheerful crowd. To have his guiding hands when I feel like I have nothing left to hold unto.

Just as today….I just found Him again…so in time when my mind is pre occupied of all the earthly necessities and I seemed to have lose all the positive energy.

I felt like missing Sto. Niño church, it has been quite long since I had been there, so I was thinking that I would attend a mass in there, but instead my feet was brought in Asilo dela Milagrosa Chapel, which has been the church that I attend a mass to each Sunday for a month now.

At the end of the homily, instead of the usual Apostle’s Creed the priest was like renewing our baptism and it was in that very moment, when  I found that inner peace again. I just feel happy and light within that it goes up to my lips and form a smile.

Life indeed has its many forms of unfolding the events in our life. Some maybe how we want it to be, while others might be in a way that we least expect it to be, but surely it is for the better.

Once again, I lay all doubts and troubles in him, and hold on this very quote “Behind passion and death is a glorious resurrection.”

Happy Easter everyone! May this special day in our spiritual journey, brings you a lot of Easter eggs of joy, hope, faith and happiness!

Keeping up the Faith

The past weeks has really been challenging both physically and emotionally.Things went way out of control and never in my wildest though did it occur to my mind, but, I am thankful that slowly it's getting back to its own pace..hopefully this will go through  and everything will get back to normal again.

Yet things are drifting apart, I am still able to convince myself that this is only another detour in my journey . What keep my strength is the thought that one day soon I will be laughing when I would look back at this very point in time.

It is not really easy to dust off yourself after every fall, as they say easier said than done.But the point is, it doesn't matter what others will think about for as long as I am not doing any harm to anyone.I am just happy and thankful to realize that I have a bundle of good people who will be there despite all our differences.

" So, whatever it is that you are going through right now...just take it slow...don't pressure yourself too much. One day you will be out of it and it will be soon a part of your own history book." I've been there and that, and I am on it again these days...just keep the faith and everything will follow.

Some Things I missed on JANUARY

For five years in a row this month used to be my  "Cramming Month "
A lot of things are keeping my mind busy but....
That was so yesterday, now as I look back at it...I just miss the memories
The thought of possibly exploring new things, meeting new people, engaging in business talks like a pro...hehe! LOL! and of course the chance to travel!

Here are some of the places that once upon a time I had set my feet in.

January of  2009 - I was able to experience the swimming pool with waves..haha! And my first time to eat  leaves  in every meal! And my first to ride in an airplane. LOL! The experience was not quite good as we all got upset tummy, maybe because of the pressure or whatsoever, but it will always be worth reminiscing for!

JANUARY OF 2010 - I got to see the beauty of Northern Luzon through the eight - hour drive to Thunderbird in San Fernando, La Union! Was able to feel world class resort experience! Mouth watering dishes, very peaceful ambiance and a scenic view! How I wish I was only there for vacation, perhaps I could have explore more about the place. Nevertheless, the whole trip was awesome!

JANUARY of 2012 - Whew! Summer Capital of the Philippines Moment! Finally, one of my childhood fantasy did come true! Was able to feel the cold Baguio air, though it was not as cold as in my native home during December, when we get there. But it was so refreshing and  I was also able to see in real some parts of the Banaue rice terraces. 

JANUARY OF 2012 - my kind a boring trip as compared to the previous one, since  I had only explore few places. But if there's one place I would love to visit again, it is that restaurant in Eastwood where I had tasted the best omellete  I have ever tried. Unfortunately, I forgot the name of the restaurant. tsk!tsk!tsk!

It was travelling that I missed about I am wondering now, if I could still get to the places that I was once been there.But anyway, if in case I won't be able to get there again..At least once in my lifetime I was able to experience.And felt the ambiance of such good places.

It is all in the memory lane now, and as it is said, " past is like a park that we get to visit when we like to, but not a place to dwell". For now I will just look forward where JANUARY to DECEMBER would bring me.

TWENTY THIRTEEN – A ROLLER COASTER RIDE

2013 – Definitely my most unforgettable one. This is when I make some bold and brave decision without looking back, finding myself in a new environment, find solace in God, and escape a little while to breathe from all the hustles and bustles.  

BRAVE  DECISION

For years, I have been living in my comfort zone at my own pace. I mistook lots of new opportunities that have come my way because I am afraid of leaving the place that I am used to. I am afraid to take a leap.Early of this year, I decided to search for a new environment half heartedly. Until I've realized I really needed to make a change on myself and on where I am.

Come the month of May, I finally made the boldest and bravest decision I ever made so far. I could not say that it is a good one but I can say that it’s what I really needed to do

"No matter how afraid you are to gamble with chances, when you are no longer happy with the things you are used to, you will have the courage to make a decision and stand by on it."

NEW SPACE FOR ME

Whatever decision we make, there’s always a corresponding consequences both bad and good. And it is not easy to start from scratch again, but with a brave heart and open mind sooner I have found myself creating a space in a new environment. Everything is fresh and far from what I used to do. It was such a big change, but with the help of my new found family I was able to make it through.

"Life is not always a win-win situation, it will always be: you win some and then you lose some, just as when the door closes, a new window will be opened up for you."

 FINDING SOLACE IN GOD

It is not just my personal being that has been tested but as well as my spiritual being, when my strength was shaken because of the calamities that hit my country. At some point I had asked the meaning of all these tragedy that seemed to destroy the faith I have in Him.

It was last October 15, when we were literally shaking because of the 7.2 magnitude earthquake that hit Bohol and Cebu. It was not my first time to experience such but it was the strongest one and seemed to be the longest few minutes of my life. Fears of so many things flooded my mind. Thankfully, there’s not so much damaged within our place. Looking at those historical churches that have been destroyed, made me even wonder what’s His message behind this calamity.

We have yet to recover from the recent destructive earthquake and thousands of aftershocks when another natural disaster butts in. November - when super typhoon Yolanda made a landfall in the Visayas regions. Left thousands homeless in other parts and casualties. And even until there are still bodies that are not yet buried.

Looking back at the aftermaths of these destructive calamities easily broke our hearts into pieces. But it is also breathtaking to see, how the Filipino nation and the world work as one to help those who are truly in need. People from all walks of life in different corners of the world take a move, and thus make a difference. It is also a great joy, seeing those most affected citizens somehow still find something to hold on to keep their faith, still thankful and feel blessed despite what they have been through and were still able to share their sweetest smile.

Thus, I believe God has delivered his message well… and like what he said “There is no problem too big, which reminds me of this line from a song:

“If you carried away the weight of the world upon shoulder

I know my brother that He will carry you”

2013 ESCAPADE

fan mode @ Earth  day Jam 2013 Ayala Terraces

halo-halo

food anywhere and everywhere

drink escapade

2013 may have scared me to death because of strong earth quake, super typhoon and stand off in Zamboanga, raises my blood pressure because of the teleserye of  PDAF thing, I am still grateful and blessed.

For this is the year, when I have known the better part of me, gain new friends,work and work like there's no tomorrow at the same time enjoying the simple things life has to offer. I got more time with myself and my family and I am more than thankful for all the blessing that God has showered unto me.

With all these in my heart, I can happily bade a sweet goodbye to 2013 and WELCOME 2014. I have made some secret New Year's Resolution, I am not sure if I can do it but one thing I am sure of 2014 will be better than 2013!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!