Big Five

Getting and Feeling Like Real OG

Hasn’t only been yesterday that I was celebrating my 30^th birthday?

Seriously, am I the only on their early thirties whose actually feeling like this? If I look back and reflect at some points in my life during my teenage and twenties I feel really blessed and so grateful that I reached this milestone. These days, somehow I am really able to enjoy and live my life, not that I wasn’t able back then. It just feels so difference these past years,

Anyways, the writer in me is up tonight...it has been too long since I wrote a blog, though I have been meaning to and there so much that I want to write, it’s just ideas are all scattered in my head and can’t figure out yet how to translate them in writing. So just, last month, I turned 32, as in THIRTY – TWO! Didn’t really had a special celebration coz I saving for something else that time, but thanks to my best who treated me to a birthday dinner at Shakeys, and my bad I did not even bother to take a picture of us.

And I just thought of writing Big Five of the things I am grateful of now that I am thirty-two!

1. Gift of friendship

 I remember a time, I was still on my twenties when I was thinking, that I really didn’t have best of friends or even that close tight circle of friends. My grade, high school and a few of my college we’re so busy making a life everywhere, sure I got some hundred of friends in social but that’s a different case. However, now that I am on my thirties, I am able to see and know who friends really are. We do not see each other that much, but that sense of security, that feeling of belongings, if that’s the correct term.

2. Blessed to have met great mentors in life

If I got to enumerate my grade school teachers up until my instructor in college, I could definitely do. I must say and proclaim that I was blessed to have met such an amazing mentors from school and even at work and I should give credits to them for what I have become today and I will always have high respect for them, wish one day I’d be able to do something in return to them or at least even pay it forward. #fingerscrossed

3. Work

At some point, I had complained that I had just been working all my life that I got exhausted and de - motivated to work but these days I find it a blessing now. Because of all the work I’ve done in the past, I am able to get where I am right now plus I am now able to really enjoy life, which reminds of the words by one of my managers before “ No amount of hardwork will ever be wasted”

4. Sense of Direction

On my younger years like teens and twenties I used to plan a lot, without realizing that I have been planning my life so much that I sometimes forget to enjoy and be in the moment. I pressured myself to really do well otherwise I would fail. At is point in time, I no longer have a plan but rather a vision I know where I am heading to and what I really want in life. I feeling like I am making peace with myself now. I was able to come up with these terms when I started to care less of other people opinion.

5. Family

I ain’t have that picture perfect parent or even sibling relationship but they’re definitely the reason why I am where I am right now.

 Something’s missing?, ohhh well as they say “ You can never really have it all” but I do have a feeling that it will come at the right time, in His time!

 Lastly, yes I’m thirty-two but nahhhh! I feeling twenty-two!

Dear 2017

Dear 2017,

What a wonderful year you are! You have reminded that there's nothing I can do as long as I believe in me and as long as I have faith in Him. You have reminded that I have been through worst before, this is just a piece of cake.

I was a limbo, way back in January but you hit me hard that I had a courage to step out of what has been my comfort zone for the past three years. I took the challenge once again and braved out into the field of opportunities.

And I found my way to what has been an immersion at PMFTC by February where I met some amazing people, whom some I become friends with. In way I was given a chance to taste what it was like again to be in a corporate world, somehow, it was the kind of environment that I kind a miss.

But of course, after a short immersion followed a time to make a good decision since my time with EACS was about to end.

So,March has come...EACS chapter is officially closed and I was floating once again, not really sure which path I should take. 

I wander for a few weeks until you help me find the courage to finally explore into the BPO industry, not to mention that it was actually my dream to be part of it. However, I did not have much courage before, mainly because I lack the confidence in me due to my educational background and of course my verbal English proficiency. I had been to a few interviews back in time and it was usually what barred me from getting in.

But of course that didn't stop me, I watched youtube videos on how to nail a call center interview, practice each day until I was finally able to find the courage to send an application.

Hard work did not fail me , I made my way tomy first BPO company by the end of April, and booom! there start my call center journey.

Unfortunately it was a short- lived romance with them, came June 30 I bade goodbye. 

July has come but this time I wasn't feeling like being in limbo again. I have gain so much courage with my two-month stay at my first BPO company.

There comes August, I made my way to another BPO company but then it was yet another short-lived because of some unavoidable circumstances.

September made its way, while I was still studying, trying to improve my verbal English through youtube tutorials.

October came along with a new opportunity that was so surreal!I had been asking if that was real because never ever did I bother to just imagine of sending an application to this company because of much talked high standards that they have. I once had an interview with them during a job caravan in Ayala which of course I was turned down because of my lack of cc experience and educational background.

Luckily, I found my place there and  still lucky to have been staying there until this day. One thing that amazed myself , is the fact that I am able to handle a voice account. For some it maybe an easy or perhaps the simplest account but for it is a great achievement specially when you hear from interviewers a lot of time that I have so many lapses in my pronunciation, which I still have up until now.

Thank you 2017 for the amazing year:

- the year when I muster my courage once again

- the year when I met another amazing people whom some became my dear friends

- the year when I met amazing mentors who has helped me a lot in so many way both personal and professional 

with my Team52

with my BB girls

With my team laagan

love,

Mokz JM

From Thrash to Throw

I've been hiatus in the work field for quite sometime now, so to keep myself busy I make "butingting" of what's around me.

Among these things were plastic wrappers of candies, chips, coffee sachets and many others. The inspiration actually came from my grade school project, one of our grade 6 project which was the throw pillow.

A little story about it, back then I and few of my classmates would pick plastic thrash everywhere. I don't have to pick thrash myself nowadays coz aside from our own household plastic thrash I also have a kind neighbor "Ate Neneng" who segregate her plastic thrash for me.

As of this writing, I already finished three mini thrash pillows. This keep me busy along with another project in the works while waiting for my NSO to get back in the work field soon.

Plastic donation from my kind neighbor Ate Neneng

The not so fun stage, would make your hands specially on your base thumb, wish I have a plastic shredder - stage 2

You can either sew lace cloth on edges or wrap it with a pillow case - stage 3

Finished product mini throw pillow

This is how I keep myself busy these days, but I am dying to get back to work now, special shutout NSO head office, wish you could approve my request ASAP! Huhu!

The Door I Refused to Open

These past three months have been a roller coaster ride for me. It took me to places I just imagined back in the day at the same time I was reminded that indeed the only permanent thing in this world is  CHANGE.

I believe I am one of those people, who has difficulty in leaving the comfort zone. Yes I can adapt quickly, but as much as possible I would rather stay where I am in at the moment than to venture out in the unknown, which is one of the reasons as well that at my age I haven't been to different companies. In other words, if you have my loyalty, trust that you will have it perhaps lifelong unless there's something that would broke my trust.

However, these past three months, it was a different story. It was a bit sad, but I was left with nothing but to embrace and accept that it happened and shits do happen.

Just when I finally feel at home, and slowly making my way through the crowd (chos!) A bomb was dropped! At first I wasn't that affected since, somehow I got a fallback, I won't be totally jobless. So I was just kind of chill, but after having experienced a legit salary ( without having to work extra on weekends or do overtimes to just earn enough), I thought nope! this fallback won't work for me now - human greed!

This lead me to a decision to apply in another BPO company, I believe I've applied for almost half the numbers as my fingers or even more. I can still clearly recall what most of the interviewees would say after my interview as well as the tone of their voice and the look on their face. I remember one said, " You still have so many lapses with your pronunciation". Others may say:  " I apologize, however, I cannot process further your application" or " I am sorry but the account that has an opening right now requires our candidate to have at least finished 2 years in college without back subjects". Of course that didn't stopped me at first. I have this motto since I was in grade school to try and try until you succeed, after all there's no harm in trying.

Until, I grew tired taking rejections after rejections, where partly I was at fault too because I did not come on interviews prepared. I realize this misfortune has to stop, while I was taking in rejections after rejections I already had a pending application at another BPO company as well that requires me to attend another reassessment before I would be formally enrolled in their training program. I finally decided to concentrate on that one first and I thought, okay I will decide from there.

Thankfully, I was able to made it to the cut and now one of the trainees! I still have a long way to go, and to be honest I am quite scared, this was the door at first I refused to open because I don't have the confidence however, those rejections I received motivated me to do well and give my all in this. The most important thing, I need a job to live the life that I wanted to have! So tiis-ganda besh!

A Journey into the BPO World

Looking back to about a decade and one


 I just finished  a year in college that time when circumstances needed me to find a job and being a newbie ( certified PROMDI here) in the city was really a struggle, until I was introduced into the BPO industries through a career workshop, and that how my dream of working in this field has begun to grow. However, being not able to finish at least two years in college plus my English conversation skills isn't at it's best or at least meet the business standards ( even until now though ^_^ ), I was not able to land a spot in this world.

Fast forward 2017.........

It has been a month or so since of being unemployed, which was the longest since I started working for around a decade ago. I wasn't used to staying at home anymore doing domestic works. I miss going to the office, meeting and interacting new people. With that in mind, I decided to give it a try again into the BPO world, luckily I saw a  hiring online ( well actually I've been eyeing for this one for a time already ) from a certain company for a chat support representative.

From home girl for a month to working girl ( again ) real quick 

A day after  I sent my resume I got a text from the company's recruitment representative, that I am scheduled for an exam the following day. Things really happened so fast, and to be honest I wasn't prepared for the exam, it was just so sudden. But still, I dare to come on the exam date and with another strike of luck, I made it from the initial exam to final screening, followed next was the contract signing.

Student mode again

Everything is literally new to me, I didn't have any clues as to what to expect on this field. I was still overwhelmed at the turn around of events plus each day of the training period especially on the first few days got my head like information overload. I had hard time processing all all the things that were discussed plus we got quiz almost everyday. And as much I don't want to admit it, I did poorly in those exams which has caused me a dilemma, like as always I overthink again.

If it is meant for you, then it will be given unto you

The hardest part was after the first half assessment, waiting for the result somehow made me feel like I was in the limbo, though I tried to pacify myself, at least I tried.If it is for me, then it will be given unto me. Thankfully, I made it through the first half but still I wasn't complacent about it, coz I barely made it.

Then the second half of the training continued, unlike the first half this time around I am able to adjust and make myself starting to feel at home in this new environment, and to make a long story short

                                               I MADE IT!!! WHOAH!                                                                

But of course the real deal is just about to begin, finger crossed I hope and pray I will make it there as well. Hwaiting!!!👊🙏👀💪💪💪

What 2016 has taught Me

In less than 12 hrs or so from now 2017 will finally kick in! Still a working day for me tho and definitely one of the many blessings I should be thankful of. It wasn't smooth sailing but I am able to managed and survived. If I'd look back at the months that had passed I can only smile I managed to get until chapter 12 page 366 of this book! ( ansabe?) 2016 is still a good year, for I have been blessed with good health, family,and  friends.

"It's not what we have in life, but who we have in our life that matters"

At 30 I supposed to have a stable career, a good balance in my bank book and perhaps my own house- well that's what I dreamed of at least. But like always, some things will not go according to how we want it to be, at times we need to sacrifice a little to give way for God's plan in our lives. I may not have those things that I wanted at least I have my family with, maybe not complete but we are overflowing with love. I am happy that each Christmas and New Year since 2010 we start and end the year together with my siblings and my father. Not so long ago, this was just in my imagination.

I still have so much wish for my family, but I believe one day soon it will all come true, it is only a matter of when.

One of the many blessings that I received this is year as well was being reconnected to my mother's side relatives, I had never heard of them since I was 10, thankfully because of the modern technology - facebook to be exact my cousin Jeia found us. For now I am so looking forward to be reunited with them in flesh, ^_^

few of my cousins from mother's side that I have yet to meet in person ^_^

"There are some people in life that make you LAUGH a little louder, SMILE a little bigger, and LIVE just a little bit better"

Somehow I could claim that I am blessed with the kind of friends I have in my life,And my 2016 won't be amazing as it without these amazing people whom I shared this year's journey with.

my list could go on with the people I am blessed to have with in my life, these are just few of the family I choose to be with  <3 <3 <3

"Don't wait for perfection before you start. Start somewhere so you can have something tangible you can work to perfect"

This year I took the courage to start something new again, it has been on my mind for so long and I was really hesitant about it. When your mind is clouded with all the negative thoughts and what ifs all you need is just one person who'll believe in you and trust that you will be able to do, gratefully I was able to have that one person in my life, thus last December 8 our little online business was launched. Wherever this would lead us, that I will be looking forward in this coming year with great hope!

"The best things in life are the people you love,the places you've seen, and the memories you've made along the way"

new year 2k16 escapade

sadsad @ Sinulog festival with le sissums

IEC 2016 @ SRP grounds

IEC 2016 @SRP Grounds

Holy Week trail

Best Western Lex Sandbar Resort Cordova Jul 2016

Christmas dinner @ Parklane International Hotel

A big thanks to everyone ( on and offline) who has been part of my 2016 journey

Now,with my family beside me, the good people I have whom I called friends and with all the lessons 2016 has taught, I am now very much ready to welcome 2017 and is excited to see what is in store for me!

THANK YOU 2016 & HELLO 2017!

Buffet Raid ala Mokz

I can give up buying new clothes,much more gadgets but never will I give up on food - that's pretty obvious with my baby fats😁.

I am normally "tihik/ kuripot" but when it comes to food nahhh! I could spend more than what I am earning on a daily basis, if I won't control myself.
But that wasn"t the case last Thursday, Dec. 15,2016 as we got a treat of more than 5bucks dinner,@ Manuel's Restaurant in  Cebu Parklane Hotel. For someone like me who is contented at carenderia food & fast food chain value meal , a diner at a hotel is definitely a luxury, therefore I have to make extra sulit!

1st plate: soup & main course right away
white rice - the essential
spare ribs - the "bomb" legit!
roasted chicken w/ raisin - nothing extra ordinary except it has raisins
chopsuey - don't want to get veggies can't turn away from my favourite

2nd plate: it's all about sushi
too bad I did get the name of all these but I fall in love with these. I did not like these when I first came there but I guess this time around my taste buds have improve

3rd plate : dessert round 1

and for the last panghimagas , halo-halo it is!

food display

Was it all worth it? Definitely it was, been there twice now and I would love to come again, but first I wish to try another place next time

Food tastes so much better when shared and so my date for that night...