To the Woman I Ever Love

Life may have not been so kind to us
Our ties may have been stained by indefference
Still it doesn't belittle the woman you are to me
For I wouldn't be who I am today
If you didn't carry me inside for nine months long

We may choose to be in different directions
And that dark clouds hinder our sight
One thing for sure, I will be always here
Waiting for that woman I ever love

Happy birthday Mama!

WORLD TEACHERS’ DAY: A PART OF ME WAS A PIECE OF YOU

A tribute to my mentors who have great impact in me.

It was my childhood dream to become a teacher. During my younger years or during my primary education, in almost every classroom you can read this line: “Be proud you are a teacher, the future depends in you”. Isn’t that a pride? Back then I would always play the teacher in our game with my cousins, I love checking their papers and put 100 as their mark.

As I grow up I realized how difficult it is to be a teacher, most especially if you are assigned in the mountain barangays like ours way back years ago, where there was only one passenger jeep that goes to town every Friday, therefore a teacher in our barangay could only spend Saturdays & Sundays at their home, technically you will leave your family behind. And such is a great sacrifice! I, then change my plan.

Top mentors who had helped me build my identity and my dreams:

1. Mrs Deirdre Romarate Arias or simply our Maam Indai

She was my school adviser back in grade three and six. I thought after graduation our connection will stop there, but it didn’t. She helped us (top 5 in our class) apply for a scholarship program at a certain mining company in our town. She was really hands on with it, from our examination then to our interview. She shoulders all the expenses for our requirements and our food also when we stayed in their house prior to examination and interview. Luckily two of us pass the examination & interview and enjoyed the scholarship in high school (among the top 5 in our class, only three of us applied the scholarship).A big thank you Maam Indai. J

    2. Sir Proceso Arias or Sir Procy

 

He was my fourth grade adviser who taught or shall I say give me an idea about computer, when I decided I don’t want to be a teacher anymore when I grow up.

One time in our English class on my fourth grade, we were told to write about our ambition in life for our formal theme. I thought, I don’t wanna be a teacher anymore, so I ask my teacher: Sir Proceso Arias what kind of profession that deals with computer ( note: I haven’t seen one yet that time, only heard it in a radio), then he said just write their computer programming. Without any knowledge of what course is, I wrote I want to be a computer programmer. (Sadly, I wasn’t able to realize that dream, but I did take up Computer Science when I studied in college.)

3. Maam Marijean Inion

My class adviser when I was a sophomore student. It was a struggle year for me; it was when our family was on the rocks. There were times when I am physically present in her discussion but mentally absent. Thank God she was very understanding to me.

4. Maam Leonarda Ompoc

My teacher in my first grade. Way back in grade one, I was really hard headed, and the most talkative in class but when asked to read so quite (unfortunately because I don’t know how to read..hehe). She really disciplined not only me but the whole class. Now as I look back I am astonished of her technique in handling pupils; imagine teaching two levels in the same classroom. True! She handled grade one and 2 at that time. After our afternoon meal, we are not allowed to play outside, commanded us to practice reading, the grade two pupils will teach the grade one.

Thank you for that discipline Maam Ompoc!

I must say, I was so blessed to have them as my teacher who does not only taught us with our school lessons but also encourage us to dream by sharing us their life and what they had been through to become our teacher. Thanks for that inspiration, it was indeed a great help especially to me. Living in a mountain barangay is no heaven, for us to be in school we had to walk at least 2km everyday, but we made it through the help of our dearest teachers.

HAPPY TEACHERS’ MONTH! A STANDING OVATION TO ALL OF YOU!

Point of Realization: "When can you say that you have moved on and accepted the fact that it's over?

It has been around six years or almost since my parents choose to continue their journey not in each others arms. For that period of time, I thought I had accepted it already with all my heart--- that's it! As a matter of fact - bitter truth, I stop praying and asking God about their reconciliation, it's not because I feel hopeless about it and I want to quit the fight. It is simply because I feel  within that it's time to let go most especially when Mama found someone.It hurts so much but then who am I to stop her,yes I am her daughter but it does not give me the authority to oppress her happiness, that would be so selfish of me  and  unfair to Mama .With that realization I thought I had fully accepted our situation and I can do nothing about it anymore. I was then able to pick up the broken pieces of me and had started my life again, but still I haven't got the courage to approach Mama.Whether it is of pride or fear that I feel, I can't fully explain. Until I got the chance to visit my hometown again. With my vacation I thought God gave me that time to somehow break the ice between me and Mama, I was thinking I can face her, after all she is my mother and I wouldn't be here if not because of her.In my heart I am hoping that it will be okay.

Unfortunately, when I saw Mama with her other man, there's seems a little pin inside my heart- heartbeat so irregular that I thought I might have my hyperventilation attack again. Right then, I just turn away as if I haven't seen them.I just told myself, if it is the right time then it will happen.For now I only wish it won't be late by the time I will be able to defeat my cowardice ---my pride.

At one point in our life we thought we had moved on and accepted that it is all over but then there that little space deep in our hearts where doubts, pride, fear dwell that constrain us from doing what must have to be done by the time we are given the chance to face it.But still I strongly believe that soon my prayers will be answered, and everything happens for a reason.

service crew

today memories are flashing left and right across my mind as i was assigned to manned in our special event. at usjr basak campus -  intramural, about five years ago i was introduce into sales. i wasn't thinking that i could last in that kind of job - being a service crew / sales lady.others may think it's just easy however the odd thing about it if you worked in our company is: you have to bark.yes as in bark like a dog to attract customers.i once asked,what's the use of shouting out our product? if the customer is really up to buy your product i thought no need to push it as if it is not the salable type specially in food business.but as days goes by, i realized it is a plus factor.

it is always a fun recalling my first day as a trainee service crew: though the feeling was really awkward, just imagine shouting inside the mall.but then i made it i was able to do it, but at first i  hid myself behind the ice tea dispenser. as days run  i became comfortable with it that even when i am just slicing hotdogs or hotdog buns my mouth will just open unintentionally shouting "hotdog on sticks----nathans hotdog!".there was even a time when i was riding in a jeepney, instead of saying "lugar lang" what i said was: "hotdog on sticks",as in! it was no joke!, all eyes of passenger was staring at me. i was a bit shy about it, but i just ended laughing at myself quietly.

to date i could say my being a service crew was the most rewarding part of my career.("career talaga! as if i have one!...hehehe" ).what i really like being one is that happiness i felt inside every time i got a compliment from my dear customers who get satisfied with my service,and of course the "TIP" is included in, the music to my ear when they called me by first name.and when your "suki" would look for you when you are not around in your station. it is in this field when you got the chance to meet people from different walks of life that make it more exciting and fun. i am grateful that in this journey i have been there. i am thankful because it was the phase when my personality was developed. who i am today was because of what i've been through yesterday.

and today, i was able to experience it again! i had a tiring yet fun filled day! i was able to hear those  sweet word :"ate" again. and it was really, really fun, i was able to escape the boredom  of  facing all those papers for a day!:-)

the face 4 years ago - i miss this uniform and the place

Why Do We HAve to Say Goodbye?

As I lay me in bed and close my eyes tonight
Pictures of you and me so happy with each other
Back in the days when we were still together
Those days when love is so tender and tight

Now you were there, searching for yourself
And here I am leaving ,still so much in to you
Is  this what love perfectly made in heaven?
Or are our feelings not strong enough

Why do we have to say goodbye
When I was the one you dreamed of
And you were my answered prayer
Where does our love take us now?

Why do we have to say goodbye
If our heart still beat as one?
Why do we have to take different path
If we are for each other?

Why do we have to say goodbye
If we still have this love
Isn't our love that enough
To fill all the empty spaces in us?

Can somebody tell me,
why do we have to say goodbye...</.3

Hanggang Kailan Aasa Ang Puso?

*bunga sa kasingkasing samaran ug daw nawad an na sa paglaom ug sa nagsalimuang nga panghunahuna*---ahehehehe----: = )

Minsan may isang hangal

Tanging hangad lamang

Ay ang isang magmamahal

Isang pag ibig na wagas at walang hanggan

Subalit kapalara’y sadyang mapaglaro

Puso’y hinayaang masaktan at mabigo

Iniwanan nat pnagpalit sa iba

Matapos maibigay ang buong puso

Mga mata’y  tila tuyo na sa luha

Pero puso’y nagpupumiglas pa rin

Umaasa’t nag aasam na  darating din

Ang siyang tanging nakalaan

Kahit pa tila nilimot na ng tadhana.

This is a continuation of my self proclaim "Inspirational Day". I was really thinking of composing a song, unfortunately haven't found yet the inspiration and mode to make one.

My Self Proclaim "Inspirational Day"

August 12,2011

My not - so - lucky, not- so - fortunate-day.Haven't close any transactions I ever started, too sad, but instead of dwelling on the sad thought I had decided to declare this day as my official "Inspirational Day", as the saying goes: "Make stepping stones out of stumbling block".

And so I searched and scanned for inspirational quotes to make up day.

"The fact is that in order to do any thing in this world worth doing, we must not stand shivering on the bank thinking of the cold and the danger, but jump in and scramble through as well as we can."

~Sydney Smith~

"Success does not consist in never making blunders, but in never making the same one the second time".

~H. W. Shaw~

"There is no royal road to anything. One thing at a time, all things in succession. That which grows fast, withers as rapidly. That which grows slowly, endures."

~Josiah Gilbert Holland~
"The great thing in this world is not so much where you stand, as in what direction you are moving."

~Oliver Wendell Holmes~

"It is with many enterprises as with striking fire; we do not meet with success except by reiterated efforts, and often at the instant when we despaired of success."

~Francoise de Maintenon~



"be willing to take a job at a lower level than what you may be entitled to,but in an area you love,and your passion will propel you forward.Don't let a setback stop you from pushing ahead " and now I was thinking about what I love to do..;-/..I came here and I thought I finally found it~but I guess I was wrong~but instead of grousing or feeling guilty about a misstep I have made, I know I can still come out ahead if I put my head down and push forward."

- copied from Rachel Mocoy-

Dreams are a big part of our Lives
And You must do whatever it takes

To make them a Reality;
By the plans you make,
The course you take,
And the things you do.

Don't dwell on past mistakes.
Leave yesterday behind,
Along with all it's problems,
Worries and doubts.

Realize you can't change the past,
But you can start a new tomorrow.

Don't try to do everything at once;
Take one step at a time,
Don't ever be afraid to try the Impossible
No matter what others may think.

Remember you are Unique
In your own special way.

Don't ever stop Dreaming!
 via Mohammed Ashfaq

"Pain and heartbreak are just God's way of saying: " I want you to how to be stronger and be patient until you meet the right one"

~The Notebook~

Special thanks to some of my fb friends for the borrowed quotes I copied from their wall , that was it my self proclaimed " Inspirational Day" plus a bonus for tonight I learned a new word from Ate Jane Janice Raliegh co-tribe @ Tribu Subakanon, and that was "daylight saving time".

Somehow..my day still ends up with a smile..:-) :-),:-)

Wishing for a more productive weekend!!!